it’s not an easy road

Dear today, why do you have to be so hard? What with the carb temptations, the fast food smells wafting through the air, the incessant desire to eat? Please stop. Love, Adrian.

Today is a very difficult diet day. First of all, I sabotaged myself by making strawberry shortcake last night, and making more than the two servings Billy and I ate, so there were leftovers. I have been thinking of that yummy Bisquick biscuit +sugar recipe “shortcake” and sweet strawberries ALL FREAKING DAY!! Instead of a breakfast of strawberry shortcake, like the old me would have enjoyed, I made a sensible breakfast of 2 scrambled egg whites, an Orowheat whole wheat sandwich thin, half a Laughing Cow light original cheese wedge, and 2 ounces of thin sliced turkey breast. I should stop my carb intake at this point, because today is a “rest day” for me, and I haven’t planned on any workouts, so adding more carbs is sort of not allowed. However, life doesn’t realize, or care, for that matter, about my rest days and how many carbs I can eat, and I just so happened to have made plans to take my Grandma, or Gma, to Sweet Tomatoes for lunch. You would think Sweet Tomatoes would be the perfect diet friendly place to eat, and it can be, but did you know that Sweet Tomatoes makes the world’s best blueberry muffins? best. in. the. world. Probably my favorite thing to eat there, and one innocent looking, tasty little muffin is 140 calories, which will add up if you have more than one or eat it with your meal. Or covered in honey whipped butter. Mmmmm. I wasn’t tempted by the mac and cheese, the foccacia bread, the pizza or the soft serve, but those blueberry muffins had me salivating, wondering if I could grab one to go on my way out. I loaded my plate with a spinach salad, grabbed a cup of minestrone soup, and had myself one yummy little blueberry muffin, so I was “good”, but boy was it hard not to gobble up the whole tray.

Because my lunch lacked protein in a big way, I was “starving” by the time I picked up Kobe from school. Now, when I say starving, I just mean I had a major hankering to eat, and not my ever present protein bar. I snacked on grape tomatoes and cucumber in the car, and had a Knudsen light cottage cheese on the go cup when I got Kobe home, but nothing is satisfying me today, and I am back to imagining the gloriousness of the strawberry shortcake. This should tell you a little bit about my inner workings, and the thoughts that nag me daily. I haven’t craved much since I cut out carbs and sugar, but boy do I still want to eat them, which is a learned response I have embraced most of my life, and am trying to change now.

I thought I would share my struggles with you, so anyone who is also dieting and trying to live healthier can have some camaraderie when you are also dealing with temptations and struggles. It’s not easy to change your life, and it’s nice to know others’ aren’t perfect or having an easy time making the transition (Tiffany, you are SO the exception to this rule!) I think I will go make myself a chocolate peanut butter and banana protein shake so I can make it to a late dinner when Billy gets home. And then do squats and lunges till I collapse. Here is the recipe!

Chocolate, Peanut butter and Banana protein shake

  • 1 scoop chocolate flavored whey protein powder, I use trader Joe’s brand
  • 1 medium banana
  • 1 cup light chocolate soy milk, I use Silk brand
  • 1 tbsp light peanut butter, I used reduced fat Jiff
  • 6 ice cubes

Place all ingredients in a blender, blend till smooth, light and frothy. Enjoy! This shake is about 250 calories of yummy flavor, protein that helps build lean muscle, and potassium which satisfies a sweet tooth.

3 thoughts on “it’s not an easy road

  1. I don’t have anything to say except that I love peanut butter 🙂 oh and don’t be so hard on yourself, we’re all allowed to give in once in a while.

    • Me too! You will love this shake, it’s super chocolatey and peanut buttery, very satisfying.

      Thanks for the kind words of advice! I am a little hard on myself because I know if not, I will slowly start reverting to my old ways, which include eating all sweets in sight, until they are all gone haha

  2. I have those cravings too and every now and then you Have to allow yourself what you are craving or you will go bonkers! If your craving carbs you might be lacking something (such as your insulin levels are low. You really need to try to eat every 2-3 hours something small. Bring a banana or apple with you to the gym to help those cravings!)

    Your fav shake is mine too! I LOVE peanut butter!

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s